[haru-no-yuki]

Vidoll берут паузу в активности.

Я уже давно читала блог Джуи и заметила, что у него была серьезная депрессия.
Теперь всё объяснилось.
Я очень хочу, чтобы с ним всё было хорошо.
元気を出せ！！！

перевод с ST

Everyone

I’m sorry.

I told one lie

to all of you.

I’m really sorry.

Since the spring of last year,

I was feeling some pain in my left vocal chords.

I wasn’t able to hit that falsetto that I’m so proud of.

Then, during our summer tour last year,

it became obvious,

and it was really, really tough,

I forgot how to sing.

I thought that I had to do it, no matter what,

so I went to the hospital

and they gave me some strong medication.

Throughout our long tour, with twenty stops,

Sometimes, everyone’s concerns, worries and encouragement

ended up changing

into this huge pressure on me.

But, I’m a professional, so I had to keep doing my best.

That’s what I told myself.

So at the very least, I could my best to sing,

I stopped talking,

I stopped singing,

until the very last moment, I’d rest my body.

I ended up being depressed on my own.

Before long,

autumn turned into winter, and the seasons passed,

and during that time the pain still hadn’t gone away,

and I become more and more stressed.

In February of this year, when we were rehearsing for Shun’s birthday event,

even though I had done a pretty good job at resting my voice,

I still couldn’t do that falsetto.

When I went to the hospital,

the told me, “you have a big blod clot”,

and upon hearing what they had to say, I was honestly shocked.

But, in my blog,

I lied, and said

“My throat is doing fine, and I’ve recovered”.

I am truly sorry.

Now I’m at the point where if I don’t use an inhaler, I can’t sing properly.

On this past tour, I couldn’t sing in Sendai and in Kashiwa,

Something would happen, like I’d lose my inhaler, or it’d break

And without the steroids, my voice would wear out.

Lying like that, and being on stage, I felt irritated with myself,

and being overrun with emotions, there were tears, and anger,

and I took it out on you, who have nothing to do with it.

I can’t do any long tours.

Without earphones, I can’t sing at all.

After a 30 minute event, I’ve reached my limit.

I hate lying about this [and won't anymore].

I’ve decided to take some time off to get treatment.

I’ll be having surgery.

It’ll be about a year and a half.

I thought over and over that maybe, I should stop singing.

I feel like God,

has come to me and said,

“You have to stop singing”.

But, I’ve had this dream since middle school,

and at least, little by little, with you and the members that dream is coming true…

I can’t think any other work except singing,

there are still countless songs left in me,

God has something special planned for me.

Because I’ve been able to captivate people, even if it’s just a few,

and even if it’s just a bit, I’ve been given the power to be able to sing.

With that being the case,

so that I can in the future put even more effort into [my singing], I’ll keep moving forward,

that’s what I’ve vowed.

This is the first time I’ve been so honest,

I don’t know how much can be cured,

and letting this all out, is scary.

But,

I will definitely

come back

So, please believe

in me

and in Vidoll

and wait for us.

We’ll put all our energy into the lives we have left,

and when I’ve made a complete recovery, we’ll be back,

You

will always make me happy.

Thank you for reading this until the end ☆

Also,

Rame, Happy Birthday.